As I considered serving the Lord abroad I had many doubts about whether he would really provide for my needs as a Christian worker on the field.
Yes, I had read missionary biographies, which spoke of God's wondrous provision for others, but would he really provide for me, a former telecom manager living in suburbia? Could I leave the comfort and security of home?
The culmination came while writing a paper for a Greek class on Philippians 4.19. The word 'provide' in the Greek has the deeper meaning of 'perfect provision', similar to the idea of one of those self-serve coffee machines that are programmed to perfectly fill a cup with just the right amount at the press of a button, i.e. not too much and not too little ... perfect.